Healing from a storm and growing with the colors of the sunset.


I once read a quote that read “Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky.”

Not too long ago, I decided to take a different view on life. I didn’t make this decision in a time where I knew I was struggling, in fact, I was completely unaware of the life I had been living. My life at the time was mediocre. I was going through the motions, and I had been living this way for years, maybe a majority of my life. It seems like it would be easy to know if you weren’t living your life to the fullest, or if you weren’t happy, but for me it wasn’t. I wasn’t living life unhappily to my conscious knowledge. I enjoyed life, laughed, worked hard, and loved. I had a great group of friends, a supportive and loving family, and I lived a more than comfortable lifestyle. I thought there was no way that I could ask for or need more.

The moments in which I realized I was unhappy with my lifestyle were unspecific, minute moments of my life. I remember the days when dropping a piece of cheese on the floor ruined my mood, and I turned into this hostile and aggressive person I wouldn’t recognize today. I began to realize something was wrong. Towards the end, I seriously considered that fact that I may be depressed, and needed to see a doctor. I’m not a huge fan of the doctor, so of course, I attempted to look for alternatives. I couldn’t of even imagined that it was me, and the way I decided to live my life.

I started to read up on perspective, look at blogs, and really take a look at my life. I wouldn’t be able to tell you what sparked the realization that occurred, but I can tell you that whatever it was, changed my life for the better and saved me from continuing with a life I wasn’t proud of. In the beginning, I didn’t even know what changed. I was happier, I just knew I felt more alive. I started to get upset less, and I began to look at people differently, look at myself differently. The situations I got put in, I viewed more positively.

Positive, the word that describes what I then had suddenly realized changed. Now, if I dropped a piece of cheese on the floor, I would assume there was a reason I wasn’t supposed to eat that specific piece of cheese. I’m not trying to say that the reason that I came up with is true, but it made me feel better, and ultimately, isn’t that what life is about? I sat down, and spent some time thinking about how difficult it was to live life when everything I thought about was negative. Even worse, that I thought life at that time was great. I was so grateful for what I had been given in life, that I wasn’t being grateful for life itself. I was living in such a way, that I know now, later down the road, I would not have been proud of.

Today, I try to spread optimism. When a bad situation occurs, I try to lighten it by suggesting why it may have happened, or remembering how lucky the situation is compared to how it could have been. The hostility is completely gone, and now I rarely feel the need to sit down and cry or be angry with someone. The clouds in my life have a different meaning now. The storm is over, and I’m beginning to heal and grow as a person. I’m not done changing, and I don’t think I ever will be. I’m really glad though, that I’ll keep changing and growing. If you’re lucky enough to realize that it’s happening, it’s one of the best experiences that you can have happen to you.


Man’s Best Friend

A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than you love yourself.
-Josh Billings



These two pups are what keep me going on days I feel like I can’t. No matter the circumstances, they are always in a good mood. They love me more than I could even compensate with. It’s hard where I live, because several people around here don’t believe in keeping animals for pets. However I do, and I find it sickening the extent some people will go to for the purpose of using a dog as a machine. My dogs are a part of my family, and I long for the day when everyone else feels the same about their pets. Cherish your pets today, because their love is unconditional. Is yours?

In this moment…

Years I have waited,

For the moment you would arrive,

Never could I have imagined,

What it would be like.

You walked in solemnly,

Eyes filled with tears,

We have dreamt of this moment,

And how it we have feared.

After only minutes with you,

Understanding of your love,

I was pleased to give a gift,

To the heavenly skies above.

Forever I will pray,

For the you in the sky,

In my arms, you have lain,

In my soul, you will lie.

Hope this poem leaves you wondering. I wrote this on the spot, and this is actually the first poem I’ve finished, as well as posted, so try not to judge, although I would love constructive criticism!

Cherish Every Good Day

Many of the close friends I know  and have say they don’t judge a person by looks, morals, or things a person has no control over. Of course, this is spoken when topics such as racism and sexuality are brought up. I can understand how it can be very easy to say you don’t judge, and I also understand that what you may be saying at that moment is true. What I don’t understand is how you can make such a broad statement, and then turn around to disprove the words you just spoke. Another thing I can’t grasp is saying that you won’t judge a person over these certain qualities, and then treating them in a terrible way(whether to their face or behind their back) once they’ve done something that they as far as you know, have control over. Not understanding what is going on in someones lives, and then acting upon those assumptions can be one of the most common mistakes we make. Over the past week I’ve watched each one of my friends speak badly of a person, sometimes myself being the subject of the conversation. I’m not easily angered or upset by the little things in life, but the concept itself makes my nerves shake with fury. I have set a goal for myself to not speak badly of person, no matter the actions they take towards me. Starting with this is difficult enough, but later on I will try expanding this concept by adding that I will stand up to the people who are acting on their assumptions. You don’t know what kind of day they’ve or what their life when you don’t see them is like, so it’s very selfish to only judge them on what you’ve seen. On another note, even if you know them from the moon and back, sometimes acting angrily back can just make the situation worse. Be genuinely nice to people. They may not appreciate it now, or later, or ever, but knowing that did something to try and better the situation is recognition enough for me. I encourage you to take this challenge with me as well as spread the word to friends. Feel free to comment and let me know something nice you did for someone, whether they were nice to you or not. Also, feel free to comment and let me know if you’ve stood up for someone who was being treated in a not so nice way. Have a good night everyone! I wish you the best in whatever you’re struggling with anytime this year, week, day, or hour.

Love all of you!